something is now officially wrong with me // growing up - Lograh — LiveJournal
10:33 - something is now officially wrong with me // growing up
damn.. tonight's the Korn concert and I have no motivation at all to go. Roommie picked up the ticket for me a while back, and I'll certainly reimburse him for the cost (not much, so no big), but I'm strongly leaning towards just not going. I'm just not in the mood. I know that even if I do end up going, I'll not be visiting the pit (which is really my only reason for attending in the first place). I'll probably just sit up in the stands somewhere and fall asleep half-way through. I'm just not interested in Korn or that activity right now.
Hence my concern. I tried listening to Slipknot and Korn on the way in to work, and while the tunez are nice enough to bop along with I just wasn't feelin' it. And I'm still not. I normally would jump at the opportunity to go to a concert, dive into the masses and get bruised and battered (it's a great feeling, ramming into someone and feeling your body flying through the air -- even the sudden *thud* as you hit the ground isn't too bad). Right now, I just . . . don't. I don't have any interest in staying out late tonight. No interest in being in a smoke-filled space listening to way-too-loud music (sorry, but I don't feel concerts need to have the volume set to 'max' all the time). Sure, it's fun for about an hour or so, but it just doesn't seem worth it today.
That, and they haven't released any new music since last tour anyway (just a 'best of' compilation album) so it's not like this will be a wholy new experiance (unlike the lemon-lime mocha I had this morning -- gak!).
Hrmm.. I know the 'Mid-life crisis' is when someone who's life has settled into a stable pattern of suburban security suddenly feels the urge to break from the pattern and do something 'wild' in an attempt to 'recapture youth'. What about when someone has no interest in doing the 'wild' activities any longer?
I hope this is just a phase and I'll eventually grow out of it.