September 10th, 2003


LJ poll!

stolen shamelessly from others on my userlist. I figured a quick little break from the fluff would be nice.

What do you like best about me?

What do you like least about me?

If someone who doesn't know me asked you what I'm like, what would you say?

Now your turn: Ask me a question, a good one.

Each text field goes on far more than what you can see, so don't worry about fitting your answers into such a little box. I'm marking this on my memories page and I'll check it for a while incase someone answeres it after it scrolls off my friends view.

lunchtime update

well, I've gotten two questions so far, so here goes:

Does your stomach hurt as much as mine?
Not at the moment. I had a bagel while I was in the Dean's office so that is holding me till I have more substantive food.

How much of what we see in you is the real you, and how much is artifice you display for our benefit?
Hard to say in general. I've gotten pretty good at behavior modification for social situations, so if you're looking at me in a crowd, not much of what you see is real. Get me one-on-one and it's something else. Depending on how hard you look, and how long you've known me, you'll either see pure fluf or you'll actually see me. *You*, for example, are getting to where you've known me long enough now that you can probably make some honest claims to how I might exist (much though it may pain your head to consider such). Someone I just met a few weeks ago might think they know me (depends on how arrogant they are about their abillity to "read people") but in fact they know almost nothing more than the most superficial qualities (and even those they'd have to be particularly keen to pick up). Problem is, I often find myself adopting traits that others around me exhibit (as percieved by me, of course). I've tried to become more concious of this habit in an effort to be able to better moderate the frequency with which it occurs, but I've not have much luck in that endeavor.
I hope that was sufficient. If you meant to ask on more detailed examples of behavior, just let me know and I can clarify.

Any other questions, just post 'em.

more answers

once again, if you wish to ask a question, do so here.

What was your BBS of choice back in the day?
Nightstalker. hehe.. okay, so that's a cheap answer. I actually had a handfull that I frequented and I'd say they were all of equal importance to me. The Timestream was one, it being the major gathering point for most of the people I liked. Nightstalker I enjoyed because of the discussions it attracted (somehow different from the ones Timestream got, though I've never figured that one out as the core userbase was essentially the same). Dreams Underfoot was another fav, even though I wasn't on it for as long. Most others I really didn't frequent as much, or I simply didn't feel as "at home" as I did in those three.
(NS being a cheap answer because it was mine, for those who didn't know. few things are as satisfying as seeing a user is online and just randomly turing on the "MmM MmMmMm mMmMmM" filter!)

If you knew success was guaranteed, what would you do with your life?
The same damn thing I'm doing right now. I realize it's a sad, cheap answer, but it's true. The lifestyle I currently have (working in computer support, studying math) is one I've been gearing up for since the 8th grade (and one I've been actively developing skills for since 6 years old). My life-long plans for well over a decade have included "eventually get a PhD in Math". It's shifted from "...and find a job that uses it" to "... and never use it in my job" as I realized that the easiest way to continue to enjoy something (for me, at least) is to dissasociate it from your survival. As it is, though, taking classes in the Masters program in Mathematics here is clearly along that path. Perhaps the only thing I'd change to my overall lifestyle, knowing that success is assured, is shift "permanently move to Southern Germany and naturalize as a German citizen" from a "nice goal, but not definate" to "definate goal". I'd still be working towards it, either way. I guess I might tack "have my photography support my lifestyle" on as well, but I'm hesitant to move something from a "hobby" to "job" status (see the dissasociation mentioned above).