August 30th, 2002


let's try for weekly

my last few posts have been weekly-ish, so I figure I'll continue this trend.

Looking back on this week, I've been tired. And way too angry with myself. I now know one huge area I need to work on. I need to stop doing things I want to not do. I just wind up disgusted with myself and not learning anything from the experiance. I've been over that ground before, and it doesn't get me anywhere I want to be. Along with this, though, I must keep mindfull that there may be times I need to do things I want not to do. I just need to find a way to bring the frequency of these to an acceptable level. Living for others is not living at all.

On the plus side, moving everything has turned up my yarrow stalks -- now I just need time.