Lograh (lograh) wrote,

list the second!

so, yeah, I can't sleep. And G3 gave me an assignment a few days ago that I've been putting off (I allways procrastinate when it comes to homework). Fortunately, it's related to my most favorite of subjects.

so, one of my favorite past-times is to think about how much I suck. What G3 said I should do (in light of my "what I look for in a grrl" list), is to come up with a list of traits about me that could make a relationship with me difficult -- ranked in order of importance to me (that is, ascending order of my willingness to change them). This is supposed to be a serious list, trimmed of all the bullshit I often come up with when just idly musing on my suckness, and restricted to aspects of myself that can seriously get in the way of a relationship.

I've got this far, but I know there's got to be more than this (only one relationship so far in my life, there *has* to be a reason). So I'm asking for help from y'all. This is not like my usuall "tell me something about me that sucks" question that I know bothers you all (and I'm honestly trying to stop that, I didn't know it bothered you so much). For one, this list was G3's idea -- blame him. :)

So, that said, the list of reasons a relationship with me won't work:
top = I'm not very willing/able to change
bottom = I actively want to change, please help.

my self-degradation
my depression (mostly minor now, but still there)
how I handle praise
my need to be alone sometimes
my religion
my particular methods of thought
my need for affection (non-sexual contact in particular)
{---drop to things I'm willing to work on---}
I'm a bit of an elitist.
my political views
I Sleep (yes, that's with a capital 'S' -- I like to do it a lot)
I'm secretive (here because it can turn off some people early on, but low on the list because as I get closer to someone, it can go away)
my transportation constraints
my dietary habits (don't know if I *can* change, but I'm willing to if it's important)
{---big drop to things I don't care much about---}
my hair/clothes/etc (I've sometimes been labeled a fasion disaster)
my baggage (but hey, it's a full matching luggage set -- with trim!)
I seek external validation (of the negative type) often.


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